DAWN
Falling Out: The good,the bad, the good again
07/24/03
She said "I'm always falling out", and pulled up her top again, to hide her cleavage I guess. We were all out drinking, Dawn, myself and Craig and Renee. Renee had already met Dawn, but this was a first for Craig. Craig and Renee had been married for a few years already. Everyone was introduced. Renee just looked nicer than usual. She had been sunbathing and tanning lately and her makeup was always nice. She had potential, I thought, as a banger. Why? because she had the body of a small Mack truck. Solid and strong. She was pretty. She was attractive. Pretty eyes. Really nice smile.
She had a great set of tits, she called 'em "moowangas", that a guy could dive into and live the rest of his life in. They were large, but they could be held up easily with her body type. Her butt was not that attractive, but she had great legs. She had no waist and she had that roll on stomach that I loved too. She thought she was fat and openly expressed it. I looked at Dawn everytime Renee would say that and laughed. Dawn knew exactly what I was thinking and said, "ohh alright go ahead, say it". I couldn't because I wouldn't know how Renee ...or Craig for that matter, would take it. If I didn't think she was attractive I would never say anything, and Dawn understood that about me and accepted it. I always said what I felt as long as it was complimentary.
Renee had quit smoking about a year ago and had put on weight, though it wasn't that noticeable to me and I didn't care. But, I always checked her out and I knew she knew that. She was aware of that and it kinda bothered her in some respects. Mind the fact she also had two kids too, so I suppose that didnt help either.
She said it again and I responded, "Your just fine Renee, you are what you are Make the best of it and accept it", and smiled right into her eyes. I would never usually look at someone like that. She blushed and Dawn kicked my ankle that time. I put my arm around Dawn and kissed her and smiled at her genuinely. Dawn then smiled back and kissed me back. We all laughed at that point and ordered up another pitcher of margees. We were definitely getting wasted that night.
"I want a cigar", I said, and Renee asked if I wanted a cigarrette. She must have broken down and bought some that day. Anyway, we had ordered dinner and then Craig and I went across the street to get some cigars and he got cigarrettes. I rarely smoke cigars. But it was a cigar night. We had happened to run into two friends of mine, girls I went to high school with. One was a good friend of mine and I really never knew the other one in school because she was two years younger than Karen and myself. I kinda had a fancey for Jan.
I overheard Renee give Dawn her three email addressess and her email at work. Four emails? I only had two. Who has four email addresses? Then Craig said, "Danny you want mine?" "Why", I asked. "Oh, okay sure why not?", I said. I would probably never email him.
We had a great time and we were just loaded as hell. Too much to drink. Even Dawn was drunk and she never gets loaded like she was. Renee was the only one who could drive, so she took us home and they crashed at our place. In the morning we had coffee and I took them home afterward.
I was curious about the four email addys of Renee. Why four? Who knew? I knew Dawn's password on the computer, but I hardly ever used her side of the computer. She was showering and I thought I'd join her. As I was gettng ready to, I saw a bunch of papers next to her purse spread all over. I hated that and straightened them up. I saw Renee's email addys and I copied them down for curiosity sake. put them in my pocket. Then I took my clothes off and got in the shower with Dawn. We made love and laughed and enjoyed each other as usual. We got out and she kissed me and I hugged her. I always loved hugging her body, especially nude. She had that chubbieness to her that always turned me on. I instantly got erect and Dawn laughed and felt it with her hand and pressed up against me just so she could get turned on a little, herself. "Danny lets do something about this later this afternoon and winked and smiled and dropped her towel and bent over to pick it up, touching my dick with her lips and tongue as she came back up. I laughed and so did she. Mmmmm, god that felt sweet, her tongue on my dick even if only briefly!!!
She had errands to run and would gone for a few hours. I asked her what she was doing and she had to get some new clothes, go the bank and was getting a cam for her computer, something she always wanted. I gave her some money toward it because they were more than she could afford and she gladly accepted. "Have fun and I'll be waiting", I said. She new that. "Hey do you have to go do that now?" She had been waiting a long time to be able to afford to go out and just shop. "Call me please hon?", I asked. "Yeah, for sure" she replied. We hugged again and kissed briefly. "I love you a lot", I said. "Danny I love you too, more than you know", and we both laughed. She was doing something that she really enoyed and I wanted her to be happy.
I cleaned up and cleaned up around our place. I got a call from her mom and we talked briefly. "Dawn went shopping", I told her. "Do you have her cell number?". I gave it to her. That meant Dawn would not be back for at least 5 hours. Dawn's mom loves to spend money and had it to spend. She was a classy, wonderful person and she was almost like a mom to me. We got along well together. She was a widow now for three years.
Reading the comics was boring. I thought about Renee's email addys. Oh okay, what the heck. So I got online and checked emails. Spam..spam.. Jesus, always spam. Then as I was quickly deleting them, something caught my eye. I went to my old emails and retrieved one. "OMG", I thought, "it's from Renee". She gave dawn her emails. But she got mine from Craig? She explained that Craig doesn't know about two of her email addys and she loved chatting to almost anyone and about lots of stuff. She only emailed people from "this" addy that she knew "personally" and there was a hyperlink. She said check out the hyperlink, if I was interested, and check out her screen name on the other one. It had a profile and another web page she built
I didn't check them out right away. I emailed her back saying how we had a great time when we all went out and that Dawn was finally out shopping and with her mom too, and asked her if Dawn and her had ever hooked up online? Nothing specific just basic general questions and left it at that. I sent the email and like I always have done in past BCC'd one to myself. I learned to do that at work. Just habit I guess. I did it when I emailed Dawn before we moved intogether.
I guess Craig was out of town that weekend she was by herself, I suppose. Ten minutes later I got another email from her. With it a special screen name and password. "Huh?" I thought. "Weird, but, ok.. lets check this out" I'm thinking "slutty web page or what"? She wanted me to visit it and look it over and because of the special password, I could go to secret link to give my input.
I went ahead and clicked and it asked questions of all sorts which I wasn't ready to answer because I didn't visit hardly any of the previous links, so I went back I went thru each link. I couldn't believe my eyes and what was offered. These were similar to web sites which you'd be drawn into, but they are always premium pay sights. These weren't!! You got it free and you got it live!! It was good and it made me jump inside.
All kinds of BBW, Plumper, Chubby, Lumpy and last but definitely least, Guys opinions about the sites they went to. I began reading a few of those to get an idea what she set up on her web site. There was a hell of a lot more to Renee than meets the eye I guess. She draws you in and gets you by the balls, so to speak.
All I can tell you is, my life for awhile was about to change, at first good and then bad and then good again.
Dawn had been gone for two hours and I knew she wouldn't be home for at least a few more hours, so I sat back and relaxed and starting tapping into Renee's links. The first was a woman in her thirties, and she was online or she offered full length movies of her day and what she did around the house with narrative. She was of course a BBW, and she had huge breasts, with clevage from one end to the other, but no stomach, only a large ass as curvacious as Dawn's...wow TURN ON!! Can you say boner, I said to myself. Large thighs, but no wrinkles and smaller calves. "Fuck", I said and she lives around here? She loves to roleplay and well, so have I in the past. "Yeah I'd do that" She loves to do it with a mic too it says, or she might meet some one after cammin with them. I'm going back to that some day I thought to myself.
Next there was Linda, who's been single all her life. It said that she was coaxed by Renee, to try this, because she is shy and wanted to come out of her shell. She didn't make any guarentees when she would be on. Cool I thought. She was pretty, slightly chubby, not flashy, until you clicked on a hyperlink, and there she was full screen and flash popped in and she was masterbating with a dildo and I said, "Fuck", again, "Wow! Where are these chicks from?" Full screen short video of her masterbating. and it was like watching TV up close or a movie theater. Damn..I'd fuck her with out question!!!
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added 12/08/03)
Dawn
called and left a message for me to meet in public. She wanted to
talk. I got there a few minutes late. She wasn't upset.
She said we need to talk about what happened and kissed me lightly.
Somehow I think I knew she understood. She had visited Renee's sight
and understood why Renee had it. Her and Renee chatted lot over those
3 weeks and Dawn learned a lot about guys, women and relationships and
what men want most basically. Dawn also having a chat with her mom
and her mom told her things about her dad,that made there relationship
flourish I guess and she explained all that.
Then
she asked me if I loved her still and I said with all my heart. I
told her what I did was wrong and I didn't need to do it, but it was fun.
Dawn understood that. Her mom understood that. Her mom knew
that dawn had dildo's and that Dawn mastervated too. Dawn's mom had
done that from what I was gathering. I really didnt want to know that personal
shit. Dawn's mom could get a man any time she wanted..almost!
Dawn
said she had to go to work, but asked I would come "home" I asked
if she was sure and she looked me straight in the eye and said yes.
I got my stuff together..all of it and headed back home and realized she was waiting. She had a dinner ready and flowers and the sheets were pulled back. when she got there, she said she apologized for her behavior and being ignorant. I said she nothing to apoligize for and kissed her and she grabbed me and hung on for a very long time and then pulled my hand up onto her chest and pressed it against her boobs and said I want you and only you to ahve these in my life. We ate dinner we left the dishes and we made luv..or she did like sex was more important than life it self. She screwed me so hard my legs hurt the next day. Her boobs hurt and her thighs hurt too. We pushed at each other and we jumped against each other. we carressed each other we sucked harder than we have ever sucked each other in our lives together. That night was as magical as the night we finally went out for the first time. Dawn is good for me and I am good for Dawn and Dawn is good and I am good...good in bed and a good deep relationship.
I do love her deeply. She makes me happy inside because she is what she is. Well rounded and I like well rounded. Yes I do!!